Jealousy is such corrosive emotion.
It makes us think ill of others. It makes us feel bad for ourselves. I don't know about you, but it leads me to make poor and rash decisions.
The worst part of jealousy is feeling the emotion about someone else, but having to deal with its negative consequences.
Recently, I was at a professional training event and was so overcome with jealousy of the person presenting on stage that I could barely think straight.
I was able to do some tapping in the moment to clear my head, but I realized that it was a big enough issue that I needed to deal with it in a deeper way. Over the next few weeks I spent some time every single day tapping for jealousy and all the other feelings around it.
This week's tap-along audio is one of those tapping sessions, with the tapping script also available in a text version.
I recognize the fact that I am capable of jealousy…That sometimes I am consumed by the emotion of jealousy…When I see someone with what I want…There's a part of me that thinks it is not fair…They get to have what they want…And I don't…They are getting something that I feel I deserve…But do not have…The feeling of jealousy comes from a place of wanting more for myself…It comes from wanting better for myself…My jealousy has very little to do with the person I am jealous of…It has to do with how I see myself…About how I understand my own experience…About how I believe people notice or don't notice me…I give myself permission to know…That even though jealousy is an emotion I don't want to feel…It is just a part of me fighting for better in my own life…But it is showing up in a way that isn't useful…It is showing up in a way that isn't helpful…And it feels so uncomfortable…Because on top of the jealousy…I also feel embarrassed about feeling jealous…I see jealousy is a sign of weakness…I see jealousy is a sign of pettiness…I see jealousy as me not seeing who I truly amâ€¦And not seeing what I am truly worth…But as much as I hate feeling jealous…I choose to know that I don't have to be embarrassed about feeling that way…The jealousy is just information about me…It is information about my experience…It is lets me know that I still need to work on my own self-esteem…It is information about my understanding of my own self-worth…And as much as I hate feeling jealous…I give myself permission to be easy with myself…I thank my experience for pointing out the areas where I need to grow…I can release my embarrassment because I appreciate the information that is coming from the jealousy…I can release my jealousy because I now know what I need to work on…And as much as I hate feeling jealous…I can appreciate that a part of me wants better for myself…That a part of me wants fairness and justice for myself.